There’s a woman on Facebook that led me here.
I have been having spiritual warfare ever since I was close in Jesus presence back in 2017. It feels like the enemy is ruining my relationship with Jesus and I just want to be close to Jesus like I was before. I did something bad back in 2017 and I felt Jesus presence leave and when it happened i got suidical and depressed. A couple of months later I went to a church that helped me on the right path but it also made my depression worse. I went through a whole year trying to repent of every sin. The pastor claimed he was sinless and I wanted that too, he was teaching that in order for me to be in a relationship with Jesus that I needed to be perfect. He didn’t say it exactly like that but that’s the message I got. I wanted to keep going to the church, I loved it. But I stop going after some weird experiences. It really confused me cause I felt Jesus presence in that church but after a while it was like they didn’t want me there so I quit going and never returned. I broke down crying after a year of trying to be sinless, I told Jesus I couldn’t do it anymore, also I wasn’t building my relationship with jesus the entire time I was trying to repent of every sin. Cause I was told I had to be perfect before I could be around him. I beat myself up over what I done, I once confessed what I did to someone I use to go to church with but after that I never did again cause she acted weird afterwords. I feel as I’m unforgivin and that there’s no mercy for me. I’m always attacked and have spiritual warfare. But after everything I went through jesus is still with me, so I keep fighting. But I would love to be free and I would love to be closer to Jesus. I just don’t know how..
There’s a woman on Facebook that led me here.
I have been having spiritual warfare ever since I was close in Jesus presence back in 2017. It feels like the enemy is ruining my relationship with Jesus and I just want to be close to Jesus like I was before. I did something bad back in 2017 and I felt Jesus presence leave and when it happened i got suidical and depressed. A couple of months later I went to a church that helped me on the right path but it also made my depression worse. I went through a whole year trying to repent of every sin. The pastor claimed he was sinless and I wanted that too, he was teaching that in order for me to be in a relationship with Jesus that I needed to be perfect. He didn’t say it exactly like that but that’s the message I got. I wanted to keep going to the church, I loved it. But I stop going after some weird experiences. It really confused me cause I felt Jesus presence in that church but after a while it was like they didn’t want me there so I quit going and never returned. I broke down crying after a year of trying to be sinless, I told Jesus I couldn’t do it anymore, also I wasn’t building my relationship with jesus the entire time I was trying to repent of every sin. Cause I was told I had to be perfect before I could be around him. I beat myself up over what I done, I once confessed what I did to someone I use to go to church with but after that I never did again cause she acted weird afterwords. I feel as I’m unforgivin and that there’s no mercy for me. I’m always attacked and have spiritual warfare. But after everything I went through jesus is still with me, so I keep fighting. But I would love to be free and I would love to be closer to Jesus. I just don’t know how..
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