This started in 2005 when i was twenty years old. I had gotten a job at JL French factory helping to make car parts. I was a naive boy at the time. Soon after i got hired i had noticed my coworkers were….different. All they cared about was getting laid and drinking. And the mouth in them, it was so bad it was pathological. One coworker in 1998 stabbed his abusive stepfather in the back with a kitchen knife and when i asked if he felt guilty about it, he said no. As time went on, i literally asked myself,”Bad people exist?” At the time i had a lot of head knowledge of the bible and Jesus and when people found out i was a “christian” the mistreatment got a lot worse. A lot of my coworkers saw i was different and made me a target. I hid all that anger that kept growing and growing. It turned out that another coworker became a rapist and another went schizophrenic, shot his wife in the neck and blew his head off. These people needed justice, not mercy or grace and i wasn’t getting any. One day in May of the same year, a coworker told me a bogus near death experience which made me snap mentally. All that anger came to the surface and it took A LOT of self control to not commit assault on my enemies. I drove home that night angrier than at work. I ended up saying to God,”Get the $@!# out of my life! Why should i follow You anymore? If you won’t take care of them, I WILL!!” That last part meant kill. As soon as the words were said, my personality changed. I was no longer innocent and with no God. I was capable of murder and i liked it. I never acted on any of this because i didnt want to go to prison and i couldnt explain away God. I wanted to hunt down all evil scum and rid the world of them. It was control and sweet sweet power. After a three hour physical beating from my two neighbors, i was just….done. Only place to turn was the God i had rejected. Realizing what i had done, i ended up with two sets of instincts. Godly ones and the kill evil people in Punisher style. Four years later, in 2009, i was a shell of myself. Suicidal, worthless, angry, and without hope. On August 21, i was invited to a bonfire at my old church by a pretty girl. Figured i would go for the females and hot dogs. I had some delicious hot dogs, met God instead. I was walking in the parking lot and became aware that things were….different. Like i had stepped into a new reality. Plus there was this invisible presence that was very very happy that i was there. I found the leader and started talking As i was talking to the leader, i found the man was……different. Very different from everyone else. No potty mouth, selfless, cared about me, and actually good. This wasnt right. People DO NOT act like this. Ever. The invisible presence was behind him and had tethers to him and sometimes spoke through him. I told him of a very very graphic satanic nightmare i had two nights before. He didn’t bat an eye and called a friend of his who was experienced in these matters. She came 130 minutes later and caught me off guard, by knowing my name and me having a nightmare. We sat down and she asked a few questions and i answered them and then she began to tell me everything i was doing at the time. Stuff only God knew. Was she following me? Psychic? A stalker? It was clear that this was God talking through another. God doesnt do that. It just doesn’t work like that, but here i was and it was happening. So i asked a few questions and at the end, she said my life will change dramatically. I didn’t believe her. Next day i rented a christian movie and went to the special features menu and the song never been unloved started playing and that same invisible presence came every evil, depressing, demonic, negative thing fled and peace flooded everything. I remembered her words and my life did change. Forever. When i was recruited to this ministry, i came in with a decent amount of knowledge about spiritual warfare and after realizing my demons had returned, everyone administered to me and are very thorough and efficient. I have greater peace now, more fruits of the holy spirit are starting to manifest, also more emotional feeling is manifesting as well. ZOOM has helped me in a huge, impactful way!